This has been weighing heavily on my mind lately and I just really need some (more) guidance! A lot of you have given me your input and I thank you for that ... I just need to get it out there!
Tuesday night Neal asks me, "Do you have to work tomorrow?" Me, "Yep." Neal, "I hate the days that you work." Me, "Yep." This is pretty much the extent of our conversations Wednesday-Friday. Neal does not want me to work next year.... but I am TORN!!!! TORN!!!
Here's why I like working: Getting out of the house a few days a week is refreshing, gives me a reason to talk to adults, take a shower, drink Starbucks and pay a few of my own bills. I get to spend 2 or 3 days a week at home with Emerson and clean the house (watch Live with Kelly) while Beckett goes to school and works out his terrible 2's with other terrible 2 year olds.
Here's why I don't like working: I get zero sleep (ok I lied I get like 4 hours of sleep), my house looks like a tornado has gone through it, we spend at least 1.5 hours a day in the car shuffling the kids to 2 different places.
And: Day care costs 100 more dollars a month than I am bringing home.
Here is why I am scared about NOT working: If I do not work I have no idea how to entertain both of my children all day every day with no break ever never ever (Beckett would not go to preschool). I have no idea how I would survive without my "own" money. (Neal would feel like my dad...my personal feeling. I know I am crazy. )
So with that being said- help, please, pray for me that I make the right decision for my family and myself!
P.S. I am BEYOND blessed to have been given the opportunity to teach part-time and stay at home part-time....but the preschool costs and time are killing us right now. Can I make it work 1 more year? Ok...I'm going to pack lunches, lay out clothes and program the coffeeeee for the am. Night night.
~Libby
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Wow! That is a dilemma! I for one cannot imagine staying at home every day, but mainly because with my job I definitely bring home enough to make working worth it. Personally, I feel if you love your job then stick with it, but the money would be key for us. I totally get the "dad" thing to...my husband makes alot more than I do, we still have separate accounts, and I HATE HATE HATE "asking" him for money, even though he is always telling me its "our" money. Does the job you have now allow for advancement if you stay? That's one other thing...I like my job and I've been there 5 years so I don't want to give up all that I've put in but if it didn't mean alot I would def give it up if I could. Hope that helps!! PS...just from your writing it kind of sounds like you want to stay home...so maybe go with it and find a reliable sitter to come like one afternoon a week so you can go out and have a day to yourself! And find mom groups near you...days I am home with August because daycare is closed are a breeze when I head to my sister's with her kids.
ReplyDeleteKelly I am so glad I am not alone with the taking money from the hubs thing. Thank you so much for your thoughts :) You have one cute cute little girl :)
DeleteDo you really want ME, of all people, to comment? I am a conflict of interest. I love you and will miss you dearly if you leave, HOWEVER you need to do what is best for your family. That is the only thing that matters. You'll know where to find me if you need to get out! LYMW
ReplyDeleteMW!!!!! YOU are the best best ever and I wish that I had the help that you do :( Then it would be a no brainer! PRAY I find a part-time program for B and E because I really love this setup we have! :) LY!
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